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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 10:52:57 GMT

After an entire semester of being in guitar class, I actually cared enough to learn a song. It was for the final, so I had motivation. I learned and memorized it in an hour the night before the final, and when we had the actual test, he only let me play the first 6 measures and stopped me. It was dumb as hell. If that wasn't enough of a let down, now that I finally had something to play, they took back the guitar they had let me borrow because the semester is over. Now I am even less interested in guitar.

Monday, November 26, 2007

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 08:04:51 GMT

Since half a dozen people I know and see regularly now own DS systems, I finally bought one for myself. It's only the third I bought, and its actually for me this time. It's a cool limited edition gold DS with a Triforce on it, and it comes with the most recent Zelda DS game.

That's all.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 11:03:11 GMT

IM fairly drunk, and Im watching whatever movies are on tv atm, and for some reason I think my childhood neighbor heather looks ridiculously similar to winona ryder, but instead of thinking of her as a celebrity lookalike, I think of her as a shoplifter. Its weirder because as much as I remember, I dont really think she looks like winona ryder.

Anyway last I head she had a kid a year or so ago, and she is living next door again which is cool, but I havent seen her, since I dont really live next door, so I have seen the kid only a couple time and it has been with her dad, which is disillusioning since I have seen him with a kid since forever, since she was the kid saw him with. Anyway. I am kind of interested what thi kid looks likem but more than that I want to cath up with her. She used to be a pretty cool friend from 1st to 8th grade thats still more than 1/4 my life I have known her. I think I owe it to her to at least catch up. SAfter all I still am next door to her prtty often, andf I am trying to start up a community activity in her neighbothood, so why not//

IN OTHER NEWS I LEARNED HOW TO PUSH cAPS loc k to turn off unneccessary capitalization, whil I also walked down the block andfound new cats to play with sinc eth few I knew hace left or died. The newest one is named "bear bear" and regardless of how stupid his name is, he's really friendly and he is like a fuzy sylvester. He likes me so much he drools, which is kind of disconcerting, but hey, he's fluffy as hell. I have seen him a few times and one time there was a dead squirrel, which I think I poisoned with the squirrel poison that we have been using in the yard, but I heard his owner and a carpooler talking about how they liked thathe squirrel died, because it was ruining their fruit trees.

The squirrels are a real problem in the community, and they are the first animal in my entire life that I honestly feel like killing without remorse. They need thinning, because they are more of a burden than a rare occurance, which is very annoying. They dont look cute so much as ruin lawns and production.

If I had a week, where three of me got together and di whatever, we would kill all the squirrels that live nearby in 2 Days, and spend the other 5 laughing at the old lady that feeds them every day. Honestly, then only thing that keeps me from killing them is how stupid I would look if I climbed the tree after them.

On an entierly diefferent note, my friend Amy got her job back (the ont in Japan) The company that bought out her company has re hired her. I hope it works out. She says she intends to apply to schools as of the end of the year, so she isnt stuck t private companies again, which seems like a good idea. I hope it works outfor her.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 22:28:41 GMT

Monday, November 12, 2007

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 08:42:28 GMT

I am going to try to start up a community music organization in my home neighborhood.
It would be for all past, present, and future singers and instrumentalists, from beginner to expert.
I would organize a database of participants by instrument, and by street, so neighbors could contact those who might participate in a band / small ensemble, or figure out what their neighbor's can play.
I would inform them of local events that I am informed of as a member of the MENC, and having contact with college and high school band s, as well as providing a forum for others to provide such information.

The main goal would be to provide a better sense of community in our neighborhood, while providing entertainment, and encouraging neighborhood activities (that we have none of at the moment).
Wouldn't you appreciate the roaming christmas carolers a bit more if you knew they weren't just some school going around random places, but people you knew?
No real ideas of what to do once I get going, but the idea is a good one, I think.

Trying to figure out some logos for the thing.
Colors are not definite, I just wanted something to get some patterns by.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Sat, 27 Oct 2007 08:23:50 GMT

My friend, who has travelled to Japan in order to teach Japanese people how to speak english, learned yesterday that the company she works for has filed bankruptcy, and she is without a job, stuck in Japan. It's a dumb, convoluted situation, where there's no real idea of what to do next. I don't know what to say to her, but I hope things work out so she doesnt have to come home 6 months early.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 05:22:39 GMT

You know what I don't like? I don't like it when I am told constantly how I don't listen. This leaves me two options:
You can be right, and I wont listen from the start, in which case you telling me how I don't listen is pointless.
OR
You can be wrong, and I do/did listen, until all you did was tell me how I don't/didn't, which makes me stop listening since all you do is denounce me to my face.

If it's the latter, then hooray you've made me stop listening and essentially caused your own false conclusions to be correct now. Now you can feel satisfied in being upset at me, since no matter how I react you will think that I don't care.

Perhaps, if it seems that I go randomly from caring to not, the actual problem doesn't lie with me. Maybe you'd like to discuss that aspect instead of accusing me of being apathetic every other week.

If there's anything I don't care for, it's being told that I don't care.

I'm sure now it will be about how you feel you can't talk to anyone, and now not even to me cause I don't listen. Or how you're being considerate of me and not talking to me because you don't want to burden me... only to later burden me with how much you haven't been burdening me.

I don't care if you get stressed out every now and then and don't know what to do. I don't care if you take offense at some things I do. God forbid I answer the phone with varying attitudes. I guarantee you I will not always be ecstatic to receive a call. Nor will I always be annoyed at receiving a call like you will no doubt accuse me of being.

Take a freaking breath, step back, and look at this like you aren't part of it. It's ridiculous behavior, and its extremely annoying. I'm not accusing you of being evil, in fact I'm letting it pass so that some effort might be made to fix it instead of dwelling on problems. However, I don't want to be accused of dismissing problems simply because I am letting things move along.

I'm tired of being so guarded around you. You take offense at so much of what I say for no reason at all. I can't be myself around you. I always have to watch through some third person view observing our interaction as a stranger might see both of us, simply so I don't upset you. It's tiring.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 10:31:29 GMT

I recently purchased a book on fighting with a Quarterstaff, which summarizes 3 English and 3 German weapon masters from the 14th-19th centuries, after which I bought two staffs which should arrive Monday or Tuesday. I am looking for a local place to train, however I can't seem to find a place that trains staffs. I did find and contact a place in Santa Clara http://www.davenriche.com/ that says it covers staffs, but doesn't have it on the schedule of classes for the time being. I might attend just for longsword training, since it is recommended to train in longsword prior to or along with quarterstaff.

Unfortunately the copyright at the bottom of the page states ****-2005, which I infer to mean they havent updated in two years, which means they could not be doing this anymore... or they forgot to update that bit.

*****

In other news, I have auditions on Tuesday for my Music Education major at SJSU, and I have 3 songs that total about 8 minutes of material. I don't know what all I'd have to seriously mess up in order to fail entering as a new student, since they don't expect too much, but for some reason I feel stressed about it.

I performed for my parents Sunday evening, and I find my breathing too shallow when actually performing for people. This only happens to me for solo stuff. *sigh* At least I have the songs down. I can play them perfectly fine, but I mess stupid stuff up every now and then.

One more day then school starts, and I can relax. Wait... what?
CAUSE ITS ALL MUSIC! ALL MY CLASSES ARE MUSIC.
The only stressful part about it is getting in. My senior performance would only be 5 times the length of my "freshman" audition. I find that ridiculously easy... not that I want more.

Monday, August 06, 2007

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 22:00:43 GMT

Yesterday was memorable, because for the first time I dreamed a taste. It was a thick gingerbread pastry (they taste different than the thin cookies, if you've never had the two) with coconut shavings on it (not that I wanted that, but thats how it tasted) and frosted in a thick sugar glaze.

No music practice today cause I bit my lip last night and have a big sore for the day. Guess it's theory time then.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 12:18:02 GMT

You know what's nice? Music as homework, or work in general.

Like any kind of assignment, it takes some motivation to start, because its summer, and I don't want to do school work. Unlike other assignments, once I get going it doesn't bore me to death. I don't mind practicing once I'm doing it. Only problem is my brother sleeps in, so I can't practice much without a mute because it's either too late(night), or he's asleep(day), or I'm busy during the decent time of day to practice. Anyway, the song I am going to do isn't too hard, but I guess its kind of fast. Pretty easy rhythms though, so I think I'll get it down fine. Only problem is I have to get a copy of another song to practice, since I have to perform both. The second song is chosen for me, but I dunno where to get it.

In other news, I tried to arrange an outing to the Gilroy Garlic Festival, but Eric and Andrew had church stuff, Kerianna had family stuff, Alex was unsure, and Alicia is a vampire. Instead I am going with Joyce and my mom(my brother refuses to go), because I still want to get out and do something.